Hello, friends and fans!
Let's see...when was my last journal ent---HOLY SHIT! February?! Eh-hem. I guess this one's a bit overdue, eh? As many of you know, I'm getting ready to backpack across Europe. In preparation of my trip, I quit my job of seven years. Somehow, I never imagined myself quitting. I had mentally resigned myself to being a telecommunications worker-bee for the rest of my adult life. Thank God they didn't give me the opportunity. The company refused to hold my job for me while overseas, so I had to give my two weeks notice. Initially, I was frightened to quit. I haven't been unemployed since I was sixteen because financial Independence is very important to me. Now that I'm free, I really have no idea what to do with myself. I feel like a cloud of mist; Floating aimlessly from hour to hour.
This month's meetups have kept me occupied. As well as the wealth of friends I've made from attending. A few of them will, no doubt, be close to my heart forever. This is somewhat miraculous since I do not keep friends easily. Make them, yes. Keep them? No. I do not put forth effort to see others. Only the most stubborn individuals are able to become close enough for me to love them. Being my friend requires a complete lack of respect for my personal space and solitude. My dearest acquaintances tend to invade my life at their convenience, kidnap me for days on end and force me to express myself. I am eternally grateful to such souls. Without them, I would have become an emotionally-constipated hermit long ago...
My friend Jez, who could be considered a sibling at this point, has decided to pursue a career as a makeup artist. I eagerly volunteered to be her test subject and so, have been modeling frequently since March. Her enthusiasm not only added to my portfolio, but has pushed me to complete a few of my own artistic endeavors. I recently shot TWO new sets for COSPLAY DEVIANTS. I promised my fans ASUKA sets and by God, they will get them. My Plugsuit and Yellow sundress sets are being processed right this moment. I've also bettered my relationship with the fashion industry and have continued my work on the 'Zodiac Calendar' project. So far, the fallowing signs have been shot: Pieces, Aquarius, Gemini, Capricorn, Libra.
Anyway. Life is going well. I'm still determined to tone up and slim down, but I want to say how kind you've all been in restoring my confidence. My last journal was fairly depressed. I hated myself at the time and didn't expect a response of such magnitude because I didn't believe myself to be worthy of fandom. You're all incredible - just incredible to me. Though I no longer have time to respond to all of my comments & messages, receiving each one is like getting a little gift. I cherish them and feel honored whenever I see new ones have been posed. You guys go to great lengths to make me feel special! I've received birthday gifts from several fans and the 18th hasn't even arrived yet! ʘ‿ʘ How lucky can one girl get?! Ill be posting pictures of me with them (and previous gifts I've received) as soon as I return. My way of showing you how much I love what's been sent. You know, if you sweethearts would include your addresses, I'd also write you back a thank you letter with a doodle on it.
Right-o! I'm off...
Wish me luck!